IM 15 AND MY NAME IS NIKAK WAT OR HOW I CLD HANDLE MY MOM AND DADS SITUATION CUZ I DNT NOT WITHOUT HURTINGPLE?

CUZ WHN I GET VERY EXCUSSE MY LANGUE BUT ANY WHN I GET REALLY PISSED OFF I HURT PEOPLE BUT I VE BEEN GOIN THROUGH HAVIN MY LIFE RIPPED APART NOT ONCE BUT THREE TIMES MY REAL DAD LEFT ME 2 AND NOW MY MOM AND STEPDAD ARE GETTING A DIVORCE AND ITS TEARING ME APART I CANT HANDLE IT I HATE THAT EVERYTHING HAS GONE WRONG AND I HAVNT SLEPT IN 5-10 DAYS Y DO I FEEL LIKE ITS MY FAULT I MEAN I HAV MY GIRLFRIEND AND BOYFRIEND AND FRIENDS TO MAKE ME HAPPY BUT THE PAIN IS STILL THEIR AND WONT GO AWAY I MISS MY STEP DAD ALOT I HATE NOT HAVIN A DAD